Winston's Tears

      At the end of the novel, we see Winston crying, as he believes he has finally beaten his own feelings and has true love for Big Brother. But are those tears truly out of love for Big Brother? Or have his repressed feelings come back to haunt him? Winston doesn't seem to have truly let go of his feelings. He seems to have buried those feelings extremely deep, but no matter how deep they are, these memories still exist in his mind and he seems to be unable to forget them, no matter the torture he goes through, or how much time passes. He has a suitable "defense mechanism" against the thoughts that come up, quickly burying them in his mind with his love for Big Brother, or using the newspeak idea of crimestop, albeit not properly, as the thoughts come to him before he is able to stop them, although he is able to stop the thoughts as they come. But has he truly given up home? We know that he has given up Julia, but will he be able to achieve his goal of being against the Party as he dies?